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Apparently I have lots to say today.. After penning my thoughts for soo many days i need to find a place to put it down (from a very good friend of mine) She says at least i have a place to vent my feelings.

Had a bad day today, wanted to spend some time alone. Kept thinking about what to do, how to make my life more meaningful.. wanted to cycle but the nearest place is 1hr away, went for a swim alone. Somehow when i’m in the pool I realise that it’s not what i want. Left after 20 mins.

Brought myself a ice-cream and walk home. The ice-cream did wonders, i should write a note to walls for the great product. On my way home, a friend call me. I asked, what is life to her? If living is to die, what is the point of living? What is the objective if the end state is the same for everyone. She was trying to tell me that by life is short and that by living life to the fullest was the only thing to do.

I think everyone have the same thoughts, why life and why death, who determine who lives, who dies and when. Different religion tells different things about after death. it’s a great unknown. But for now, i know that I’m very fortunate, by having sufficient food, having warmth, having shelter, having love from family members and friends. One friend says that i think too much, maybe maybe not. 

I was still thinking this morning how long do i have to be back to normal. I think the answer is never, people changes all the time. There is never back to normal just have to learn to except it. For now, I’m going to find great things to eat. enjoy my friends company, exploring new interest, find a happier job, volunteering.  Maybe i can bring joy to people life too. 

Cindy

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